With it being just 11 days til the 6 year "anniversary" of my daddy's death; I am feeling it big time...
Since November 28, 2003 there has not been a single day that has passed that I haven't longed to hear my daddy's voice, that I haven't longed to see his face, that I haven't longed to feel his arms around me...these wishes just don't end.
However tonight on my way home from work the thoughts surrounded me and my heart broke, again, the tears have been never ending for about an hour now....I just long to have these times with him again.
I know that through this tragedy I am stronger, I am a better person thanks to God, the Lord brought me through it but my heart and mind still long for my daddy.
There are just some times, and I never know when these times are going to be, that I just fall apart...and tonight is one of those times.
I guess with the upcoming Thanksgiving planning it's brought it all back to reality for me...the last meal with my daddy, Thanksgiving 2003. The last time I was with my daddy, shopping on black Friday. The last time I saw my daddy as he and my mom were walking out the door...and then, he never returned.
It's just hard....
There's no other way to put it.
However, I thank the Lord each and everyday that my mom's life was spared. I don't know what I would do without her!
Lord...continue to work in me, continue to make me stronger, but I do pray that these memories never fade.
~Amanda~
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